What are you doing New Years Eve?

Me and my fancy red wine cup


So here I sit on New Years Eve thinking that I should do a year in review.  Because basically everyone else is.  Chillin’ on the couch with my wine in my Donate Life Texas cup because, let’s be real, all of my wine glasses are dirty.  Don’t be jealous of my fanciness.  And because I’m about to go to bed because I work tomorrow which means that Tarrant County needs to be nice because I’m not sure I want to work all that hard tomorrow!!

So 2013.  What can I say about you?  You were pretty good.  I had an awesome year professionally, I got a new niece and made new friends and kept my besets friends close.

New Year 2013 at JPS

January found me ringing in the new year at JPS, just like this year!  It also found me celebrating my Work Faves 25th birthday with an awesome Gong and cake

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Also, the Fort Worth Stock Show and Rodeo with the niece:

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February was February.  Valentines Day steak and wine with the WF while watching Greys.  Which is basically better than anyone trying to brave a restaurant.  And this.


March was Shattered Dreams which is one of my favorite events of the year:


Plus National Certified Nurses day which brought an amazing physician funded dinner to the local CCRNs to celebrate their special dedication to excellence.  Also…wreath making!


April is National Donate Life Month which is always one of my favorite months of the year.

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Also some great weather and preparation for NTI and my dear friend Kandace royally effing up her ankle which meant we got to go visit her a lot and play Family Feud.  Which is awesome than it sounds.  For us.

May was fun.  Lots and lots and lots of fun in May.   Nurses week.  Nurses Day found me having one of “those” days with two trips to cath lab, an emergent trip to the OR and a cardiac tamponade.



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Plus, my Mommy!!


June:  31st Birthday.  Which was amazing because my family and friends are amazing but I have to admit…turning 31 was NOT easy for my psyche.  I always thought I’d have a husband and children by 30 and instead I’m an independent woman who pays her own mortgage, car payment, bills AND kills bugs on her own.  And by kills bugs on her own I mean I spray them with bug killer and then vacuum them up.  Like a grown up.  Plus, my hair looks good.


Also, I had a long long long overdue California adventure with my BFF since the 5th grade and her awesome BF.

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The best part of July was my new baby niece Julia Elise!!

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We also lost my Grandad in July after some on and off illnesses through May and June.  A few trips back to Amarillo were made to see him before he died and then to be with family for the funeral.  It also gave us time to visit Grannie’s grave in Tell, Texas.   He was a great man who lived a long and full life and I know the whole family misses him greatly.

August was mostly a whole lot of boob!!!  August marked the WorkFaves bilateral prophylactic mastectomy surgery date and we planned for it in the very best way that we know how to celebrate…with a PARTY!!!  The Boob Voyage party was nothing short of epic.  I made myself sick worrying that no one would show and lucky for me I was very very wrong.  Friends and family and coworkers turned out in droves and I was so happy to send my friend off to surgery in style!

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Her surgery was closely followed by what I can only describe as the scariest moment of my life (until a little text in November…but more on that later).  I had a contaminated needle stick from a known HIV patient.  So soon came lots and lots of tears and lots and lots of meds and lots and lots of lab tests but thankfully some super understanding friends and family and hospital staff were there to check on me and help me out.  All is finally over in this coming February which means…obviously…a PAAAAAARTY!!!   (2/21/14 people…save the date).

September meant the start of college football and for me it means Kliff Kingsbury!!  Tech got themselves a new coach this year and he’s definitely hotter than your average college football coach.  Tech got off to a great start and had a pretty good season, considering they had a brand new coach in his first year as a head coach.  Plus…MUMS!!!!  In celebration of my very last HIV meds I not only got to have an awesome meat sweat inducing dinner at Texas de Brazil with Liza but Diana and I made muumuus!!!


This was the kick off of a suuuuper crafty month.  I started a little side-ish business making wreaths and various crafts and they’ve been all over the face books and pinterest (fancy!!) PLUS I have an etsy shop!!

October was more wreaths and more tea (I totally drink tea now) and then Boo at the Zoo with the girls!

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November meant more fall, Tech football starting to falter and probably the worst text message from my mom ever- she had passed out in the front yard, but don’t worry she was fine, the neighbors called Dad.  Not 911.  Dad.  Then she passed out two more times.  So they called her PCP.  Not 911.  Her PCP.  So about a distracted day at work later and a drive over to the Harris ER Mom had her self a big fat saddle PE with many many other clots in both lungs.  Saddle PE means she had a huge blood clot sitting in her pulmonary arteries just ready to break loose and lodge itself in the big blood vessel going to her lungs and blocking off blood supply to it and maybe killing her.  I STILL haven’t thought about how close I came to losing her and I’m pretty sure I’m still blocking it out and denying it and I’m pretty okay with that.  She got herself a week in the ICU (which found some of her nurses asking ME what to do with the EKOS machine – plug it in and don’t touch it, for the record) and a few trips to IR and a nice lifelong prescription for anticoagulants.  Buuut…she came out fine, had a heart cath yesterday and everything looked great.  Also Thanksgiving with the fam in Amarillo.

My awesome friend Kandace also got herself a badass engagement ring for Thanksgiving and I’m sooooo excited for her wedding next fall!

It also meant I got to see my BFF Megan again and take a tour of our old stomping grounds.

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Aaaah, December!!  So ready for Christmas!!  New phone that I bought myself for Christmas.  Icemaggedon that tried to ruin a whole lot of early December Christmas kick off fun.  The first WorkFave attempt to see the DSO Christmas show was cancelled because 1) we didn’t want to die and 2) the DSO didn’t want us to die either.  So we had a fabulous plan B dinner and a very cold penguin walk back.  Then I braved the roads to Great Wolf Lodge for a little fun times with my brother, sister in law, niece and cousin.  Warm in the water park…cooooold outside!!!   Plus the Wendy Davis Fort Worth Campaign office opening which was AMAZING!!  Super exciting!!

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Then Christmas parties and a pretty epic day out with my niece and Chriiiiistmas with the family!!  Which I have no photos of but are amazing nonetheless.

So I leave you with this wish for a year full of Goodness and Light.  May you get everything you need and a little bit that you want in the new year!! I’m off to bed!!!

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He’s the one they call Dr. Feelgood…

Today I’m thankful for medical advancement, science, technology, research and pharmacology.

It did wonders for my Mom who might have died not so many years ago.  But thanks to CT scans and heparin drips and interventional radiology and modern medicine she was able to go home and go back to her life.  Mildly bruised and a little worse for the wear…but in one piece and alive and thankful for it!

It has also done wonders for my friend Diana (check her out at http://www.previvingandthriving.com) who is BRCA2+ and has, since August, had a bilateral prophylactic mastectomy and reconstruction thanks to the miracle of medicine and science and research.  And some super awesome surgeons.

So…yay medicine!!!!

Only know you love her when you let her go

Today I’m thankful for a special group of people I work with.  Not my ICU peeps…my doctors.

They are, in general, a fantastic group of well informed, ready to educate, proactive, involved and enthusiastic physicians.  Even better…they’re sometimes REALLY fun to work with.  We have impromptu song sessions, cultural references mid-rounds, happy hours and even better…some mutual respect.

More than one of them are unexpectedly caring.  They’ve texted to ask about my friend Diana during her surgery.  They’ve texted and followed up to check on my Mom.  They’ll randomly ask me how my foot is doing two years after I broke it.

Want education?  They’ll give it to you.  Gladly.  Because they like it when we’re smart.

they have their wives make me Christmas wreaths.  (Super excited about this!)

Sure…they can be bears.  Pitbulls.  Total jackasses.  Often.  Just like normal people.  Just like some of my “regular” friends.  Just like me.

And those are just the attendings!!

The residents…man I kinda love some of those people!!  They’re fun, funny, excited to be there and more than a few have become great friends.  They rotate around and I don’t get to see the favorites as much as I’d like to.  Besides the ICU staff, they’re some of the only people who really understand what the job is like and how bad or good it can be.  They’ll have your back at unexpected times.  Like the time the crazy man threatened to hold me hostage (John Q movie…seriously scary) and the tiny tiny tiny ED resident just about tried to take him down herself.  (Still have the eternal shoutout to Jana for her mad crazy team leading that day)  The almost adorably awkward (almost) ortho resident who consoles you like a Sheldon robot when you’re worried about someones spine.  The ones who hear the words “central line” from three buildings away and magically show up on the unit, put in three central lines, four chest tubes and run a code with a smile.

Be jealous people who don’t work with my docs.  My docs > your docs.

Pal of my Cradle Days

So it’s not quite my Aunt Arleen’s birthday but today…I’m thankful for my aunts!  Both of them.

Mom and my aunts together are basically a force of nature and boy am I lucky that they’re a force of nature on my behalf!  I shudder to think of their power combined working against me.

I could always tell them anything, they were always supportive and ALWAYS willing to call me on my crap and make sure I acted right.  They were the perfect combination of mom and friend and exactly what a girl needs in an Aunt.  I am forever grateful to have them in my life.

Looking forward to see them on Thanksgiving too!  Always a good dinner!

Up from San Antone

Today is November 19th which just so happens to be the birthday of the most important man in my life- my Daddy.  So today, I am thankful for him.

I’m a Daddy’s girl.  Always have been, always will be.  It’s different than my relationship with Mom, who, for the record, was also a Daddy’s girl.

It’s one of those things that only a Daddy’s girl will understand.

It’s not that I’m dependent on him, it’s not that I can’t do things without him.  It’s that he’s always been there to rely on.

Half the pictures on his phone?  The time I picture texted him the inside of my toilet tank to figure out what kind of flusher kit I needed to make a DIY repair to my toilet.   Also, pictures of my heating unit to help me figure out how to light my pilot light.

The other half?  His granddaughters.  And me with his granddaughters.  They’re Grandaddy’s girls.  It’s a family thing.

Car advice?  Dad.

Home repair? Dad.

Generalized encouragement?  Dad.

Free meal at any Waffle House in the US?  Dad.

Cooking, gossip, shopping, extended girly things…Mom.  Waffle House?  Dad.

I can’t say enough about him.  For reals.  Because of my parents…I am where I am.


Also????  Mom got discharged home today!!!


Again with the catching up. Today is the 18th and I’m pretty sure I have three days worth of thanks to remember!!

16th- I thankful for my brother. At 8 years my senior, he was too old to play when I was little but as I’ve grown up he has shaped what I like to do, the music I listen to and shown me how to be a fierce defender of those I love. Through our childhood I did whatever he did and this extended as I grew up. Lake days, concerts. His influence on my musical preferences has been huge- a good portion of my iTunes playlist can be attributed to him. Pat Green, Jimmy Buffet, Guns n Roses, REK, Cross Canadian Ragweed. All people he said was cool, so I listened to them. And from that my song collection grew. I was always really in to music, but he pushed my interest in a direction outside of what I’d find on the radio.

Plus, he’s ALWAYS had my back. Fights with Mom and Dad, people in bars, other kids growing up. I remember being in high school and having a big cut on my face that was stitched up and very obvious and I was SO insecure about it. A guy in a restaurant looked a little too long at me and then he stopped. Because it was taken care of. I was ALWAYS taken care of. Between him and Dad I’d say my standard for men has been set impossibly high.

Plus…bless him, he’s in a job where he gets football tickets. Good tickets. With parking.

17th- alarm clocks. Water. Motrin. Being in an alcove where I could shut the door on certain staff members who insist on singing all day and nurse my semi-hangover from previously mentioned football game with awesome seats and So. Much. Beer. Mannitol.

18th- Those wonderful and elusive no alarm clock days. I usually end up being awake by 7:30 anyway but it’s my bladder that wakes me up and not some mean old alarm clock. Also- pictures!!!!! Anyone who knows me knows that I LOVE to have my picture taken. Today was Layla and my annual “family” picture day!!! Who needs husbands and kids when you have the prettiest dog ever!!

Thank Goodness

So I’ve skipped a few days, mostly because I’ve been exhausted.

Mom had a bit of a large health scare on Sunday which has led to almost a week in the ICU at Harris and a lot of moments of  “ohmygoodnessthiswas almostreallyreallyreallybad” on my part.

So these last four days…I’ve been thankful for a lot.

My Mom’s health and reserves to get through her big fat saddle PE.

Dad.  Just Dad.

The nurses taking care of Mom in the Neuro ICU at Harris.  They’re not my JPS peeps…but they’ve been awesome.

My awesome friends including Diana who heard the words “saddle PE” and came to sit with me in the hospital for even just a few minutes and everyone who has heard a little whisper of something and checked on me and came to check on me and Mom.

My work family for asking after my mom and dealing with my work guilt on Thursday.

My Mom for telling me it was okay to go out for lunch and the day with my BFF from forever.

My ICU docs for mini Mom consults.

My brother for procuring tickets for the Tech-Baylor game this weekend.  I need a break!!!

Medical technology.  Oh the technology!

The totally legit cafeteria at Harris.

The way the ICU works at JPS.  I ALWAYS know which doc is running the show and that is harder to come by than one would think.